The world is big.
I’ve felt this since I was a shorter human.
Pictures of the milky way in science class
Confirmed my suspicions.
I was thrilled to be recycled stardust.
Pondering the enormity of life on my popsicle breaks
sparked my curiosity and also fed my bewilderment,
Which created ripples of anxiety.
I fostered a secret fascination with maps.
I’d look for them everywhere I went:
Escape routes mounted on the back of Hotel doors.
This was for kicks and giggles, and a bigger mission.
I was hunting for one particular element,
The X that marked the spot
Where I stood.
When I found it,
My confidence would get a boost for winning at my game.
The anxious undercurrent would slow and smooth
— I had found myself.
Still, I’ve often felt lost.
I’ve gone on search and rescue missions
For missing links to feel more whole.
For tools to fix imagined fundamental flaws,
For a purpose to force me back into alignment.
It’s been a wild goose chase
Of circles and switchbacks,
Plunges and misfires,
And trials and transformation.
To this day, if a map is in front of me,
I’m looking for the treasure.
The hunt outside
Is shifting more and more to a gathering from within.
Along the way I looked for an X pendant
To serve as a reminder of where it’s all at
Answers, Love, Life, Divine.
And an invitation for all of it to boogie in my body.
One was never found,
So, I decided it was my responsibility
to create what was valuable to me.
In December 2017, I jumped into a metal jewelry class
and set my vision on fire to create a necklace
That would dangle the truth and adorn my body.
It’s always a lusty pleasure
To create for me.
It’s a holy honor
to create for you.